Blueprints

"Oops"

God; up there in the sky.(I think)
I know he's a busy man and all.
and I ain't got nothing on god.
it's just, why did he have to have wet hands while he was drawing me.
while I was just still a concept.

He was eating a burrito.
A big open-ended one,
the kind that drip out the bottom.

Well some of that dripped onto my blueprints.

Some sour cream (Godly sour cream) plopped right onto my legs
and smeared them up to my knees and called me nonathletic.

I was supposed to be a football star, you know.

My elbows got drowned into my shoulders,
ruining my to-be quarterback throwing arm
and everyone knows when your shoulder is as uncoordinated as your elbow.
well....
everyone knows...

God tried to lick up the lettuce and beans that fell onto my face.
now hair grows on my chin and my eyes are as beautiful as the inside of my ears.
I get chancres on my face instead of inside my mouth.
and their full of puss. And they're ugly. And they multiply if you touch them.
because there was a little mold on my blueprints
God left it out, unrefrigerated.

I was going to be a model, you know.

my tongue bled down into my stomach,
now i can't give speeches without getting butterflies.

I was supposed to be a senator, you know.

Some got in my eyes,
I need glasses first of all, not to mention the clouded judgement.

I was supposed to be Supreme Justice, you know.

Where my brain was
smudged in red greasy taco sauce
smudged down, down into my heart.
I guess that's why I've always thought with my heart and not my brain.
a little got into my hands too.
I think with my hands and wrists and heart.
Words flow from my heart
and out into my finger tips where they linger.
and sometimes disappear.

Fingers don't have a memory, you know.

My heart still thinks he is a brain.

Silly heart.

Silly God.

Paris is Burning

Enclosed in this letter there's a picture
Black and white for your refridgerator
Sticks and stones have made me smarter
It's words that cut me under my armor, they say

Movies Flicks and Silly chicks

My favorite movie of all time...
Holy crap that's a hard one.


Twilight easily...

:):):)


I'm hungry.

Where The Wild Things Are.

The most amazing, beautiful, innocent movie ever created.

Wow.

It is so quiet and perfect.



There were some buildings... There were these really tall buildings, and they could walk. Then there were some vampires. And one of the vampires bit the tallest building, and his fangs broke off. Then all his other teeth fell out. Then he started crying. And then, all the other vampires said, "Why are you crying? Weren't those just your baby teeth?" And he said, "No. Those were my grown-up teeth." And the vampires knew he couldn't be a vampire anymore, so they left him. The end.


Will you keep out all the sadness?
I have a sadness shield that keeps out all the sadness, and it's big enough for all of us

I can show you your kingdom. This is all yours. You're the owner of this world. Everything you see is yours. Oh, except that hole over there, that's Ira's. The tree's yours, but the hole is Ira's. But everything else is yours. Except for that rock over there, that's not yours. That little rock next to the big rock. But everything else in the kingdom... except for that stick. That little stick right there, that's not yours. I want you to be king forever.

 
Happiness isn't always the best way to be happy.

We are learning to make fire.

Welcome to writing class Fire Class 101

Does your fire look like this?

Well I have good news and bad news.
The bad news is some of you will not take all the steps. And your little flame will go out forever, and you will never grow. I'm sorry but it's true

Now, Luckily there are some of you who are tedious enough to endure and pray and fast through all of these fail safe ways to become a good writer pyrotechnic.
Pretty soon your itty bitty flame will become like Nelson's:

Take your newspaper, like this, crumple it up real nice, like this, can you see?
You're going to end up with a little ball of words and letters and semicolons, but ignore these because they aren't important, as long as you have the words and letters and semicolons you'll be fine.

Oh! I forgot!
You will need a nice sized fire pit, one that is dug out a little bit with a shovel and surrounded by rocks to stop your fire from spreading to much, especially you kids who are super indie...  You don't want others to have your fire do you??? NO way! keep your ideas inside until they are big enough to show to the whole world.
make a circle or a square with the rocks but I'll warn you squares are NOT creative.

Next you'll need kindling.
 movies, poems, poets, paper, lamp, Bon Iver music and Sufjan Stevens of course, not to mention a classroom and desks and backpacks

Next we have small sized sticks.
A silly English teacher will do. Rough him up take small bits of him and put them on top of your words and letters and movies and poets and music. Pencils and pens will also do, but the English teacher is necessary.

can you see a potential fire yet?

Next you'll need some hefty logs to keep burning for eons and decades.
Ideas, glasses, HANDS, a brain, inspirational quotes, Jealousy, Rage, Depression, Parents, School, just your basic emotions. Great you've got some hefty logs.

And lastly. Propellant of some kind. This will be the hardest one... You'll need some nice pixie dust, motivation, inspiration, gold powder, marijuana, cocaine, you get the idea.



Oh and I forgot, you'll need a match.
And that seems to be the hardest part.
I believe in you










Class dismissed 

I want.

http://allpoetry.com/poem/8494113-anyone_lived_in_a_pretty_how_town-by-E._E._Cummings

I wish I would've come up with this.
Gosh.

me Cheating off e.e.cummings

it is so good.

I wish I was more original. And I wish I didn't have to try so hard to be creative. I wish I didn't have to listen to sad music, smoke pipes and say 'quite'.
I wish I didn't have to squeeze my heart
and not just the blood, no
pulp and all, onto a new page every single time.
i wish i wasnt scared so much of bad grammar and spelling errors
and capitalization.

I wish I didn't have to feel the obligation to make sense and shoot myself with a nerf gun.

"Make me creative God"

what my prayers consist of.

"God, make me a better writer than I was yesterday."

"God, should I write you a letter God?"

all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
with by spirit and if by yes.

I wish that I could write a stanza like this, and not need to feel like explaining it.

what the crap is he even saying. 

He doesn't even capitalize his own name and initials.

i wish i wasnt selfish

I envy how other writers can compare anything to whatever they are talking about, or write a story about a boy who fishes everyday and only eats bread and make it turn into a lecture about why love is the only thing that is both constant and chaotic at the same time.

 I wish I could control Chaos like they can.

....There once was a boy, and he fished and only ate bread.

Words.

I think a lot of people have forgotten that there is still beauty out there to be discovered.

Even me sometimes.

 

Courage

Courage;
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i don't really know why i wrote all those different languages...
my bones told me to.

i am not capitalizing because,
my bones told me to.

we could just use that excuse for anything.

i killed a man,
because my bones told me to.

Sometimes though, my bones are scared too. And we both look at the floor and listen to music when we walk down the hallways.

My bones and I, we're like a portrait and it's frame. Neither really work without each other but they exist all the same. My bones and I, we get along sometimes, but sometimes I have to break my bones to stop me from looking up or speaking my mind. My bones and I dance sometimes. We swing each other round and round, till one of us drops.
And we all fall down.
Sometimes my bones and I, we talk to that girl. 

My bones like to draw pictures but I won't let them, so they don't turn out good.

Crackle Crackle they go, trying, trying desperately to make me phenomenally uncomfortable in my own skin. 
They are good at it by now.

Sometimes I do what my bones tell me to,


But sometimes I don't give them calcium on purpose.